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2006-07-01T16:12:00.000+08:00

SAY SAY SAY! haha! yes! back from arts camp 06! truly memorable days of my life. well, my og (RUMBO) from ramica is a fun bunch. heh, i admit that i wasnt truly enjoying myself the first three days cos we weren't close to one another yet, but voila! i was super hyper on the last day, talking and laughing loudly around them! heehee, i'm a very 慢热 person u know..that explains yah..

I consider myself very lucky already. i had pretty gals and guys for my ogl, aogl, house ICs and councilors. they were so fun and cute! they made our stay a very unforgettable one:)

We were blindfolded and led to our secret pals @ sentosa one nite. I was sharing TOM CRUISE with my ogmate ( oh i was katie holmes) and so the three of us held hands and chatted. (heh, his hand was trembling) norm: asked abt height, house, sch... (he's a councilor from another house) and he asked if i was attached, and aby my ex. aiyo. i got rather emotional and cried. puffy puffy eyes =

den came SP nite when we were supposed to reveal our real identity and show our face to each other. Initially, the guy who was led to us (a freshie) stoned in front of us, den he told us that the one who held our hands @ sentosa wasn't him but another guy. I felt quite cheated for a moment :\ den another guy wearing polo tee and pants walked up to us and introed himself as the councilor who toked to us @ sentosa, after which he walked away to do some stuff. I was staring @ my cold and hard fish and chips when the councilor(wayne) sat down infront of me and started chatting with me. so my ogmate ended up with the freshie and i ended up with wayne.

He helped me cut my fish into equal pieces, which many gals envied la i was told. then another ogmate smsed me and commented that my SP was not bad looking. after a while he walked away to get some drinks for me and one female councilor came up to me, told me that wayne was the Arts King of year 2005. wow. shocked but not surprised la. he's gd looking, and an excellent speaker. so my partner is Mr Arts, heh. (and he drives a black toyota)

Den wayne and i went to some club together. oh. my first time clubbing. I couldnt stand the deafening techno music @ the dance floor, so i escaped to a less crowded and played guessing game with some other people. of course, losers had to drink up, but due to my allergy, my fren drank on my behalf. the whole event was totally shagging, stayed till 2.30am in the morning @ the club. O_O

2006-06-20T12:32:00.000+08:00

What kind of person speaks what kind of language. Words that come out from the mouth definitely reflect the quality of personality that a person possesses. Personally, I believe that those who curse like nobody's business are undoubtedly the lousiest ones on Earth. It's not ur fault that u look, erm, below average, but pls, wash ur mouth and keep it clean. Perhaps this is a better way to make u look more decent. May god bless u.

2006-06-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

ARTSCamp06 sounds fun. hopefully it'll turn out fun. and we'll be staying in single bedroom i heard, so that'll be a little compensation for those who are not rooming when term starts :) oh wells.

seriously, i need some self discipline over here. been spending money like running tap water, heh, running tap water alright. bot this bot that, tho really happy and satisfied, i cant help but frown when i think of my bank account. one thing abt jc graduates is that, most start to earn their own pocket money (and guys get allowance from ns..), and parents cease to become our atm (oops..! ), hence we start to feel the pain when splurging. aye. really shud start saving up. maybe shud get a saving plan from someone somewhere soon =\

2006-06-14T21:35:00.000+08:00

the most embarrassing moment:

the doctor pressed against the lower abdomen to feel for any abnormality, but her patient broke out into laughter and commented sheepishly," that was ticklish...hehehe"

oh wells.
heh.

Portrait of an INFP

2006-06-08T17:20:00.000+08:00

Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
(Introverted Feeling with Extraverted Intuition)

The Idealist:

As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

INFPs, more than other iNtuitive Feeling types, are focused on making the world a better place for people. Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life. What is their purpose? How can they best serve humanity in their lives? They are idealists and perfectionists, who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving the goals they have identified for themselves.

INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - the INFP is driven to help people and make the world a better place.

Generally thoughtful and considerate, INFPs are good listeners and put people at ease. Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion, they have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making the INFP a valued friend and confidante. An INFP can be quite warm with people he or she knows well.

INFPs do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If they must face it, they will always approach it from the perspective of their feelings. In conflict situations, INFPs place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel, and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right. They don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations.

On the other hand, INFPs make very good mediators, and are typically good at solving other people's conflicts, because they intuitively understand people's perspectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.

INFPs are flexible and laid-back, until one of their values is violated. In the face of their value system being threatened, INFPs can become aggressive defenders, fighting passionately for their cause. When an INFP has adopted a project or job which they're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for them. Although they are not detail-oriented individuals, they will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for their "cause".

When it comes to the mundane details of life maintenance, INFPs are typically completely unaware of such things. They might go for long periods without noticing a stain on the carpet, but carefully and meticulously brush a speck of dust off of their project booklet.

INFPs do not like to deal with hard facts and logic. Their focus on their feelings and the Human Condition makes it difficult for them to deal with impersonal judgment. They don't understand or believe in the validity of impersonal judgment, which makes them naturally rather ineffective at using it. Most INFPs will avoid impersonal analysis, although some have developed this ability and are able to be quite logical. Under stress, it's not uncommon for INFPs to mis-use hard logic in the heat of anger, throwing out fact after (often inaccurate) fact in an emotional outburst.

INFPs have very high standards and are perfectionists. Consequently, they are usually hard on themselves, and don't give themselves enough credit. INFPs may have problems working on a project in a group, because their standards are likely to be higher than other members' of the group. In group situations, they may have a "control" problem. The INFP needs to work on balancing their high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, they will never be happy with themselves, and they may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with their lives.

INFPs are usually talented writers. They may be awkard and uncomfortable with expressing themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching. They are at their best in situations where they're working towards the public good, and in which they don't need to use hard logic.

INFPs who function in their well-developed sides can accomplish great and wonderful things, which they will rarely give themselves credit for. Some of the great, humanistic catalysts in the world have been INFPs.

Whether you're a young adult trying to find your place in the world, or a not-so-young adult trying to find out if you're moving along the right path, it's important to understand yourself and the personality traits which will impact your likeliness to succeed or fail at various careers. It's equally important to understand what is really important to you. When armed with an understanding of your strengths and weaknesses, and an awareness of what you truly value, you are in an excellent position to pick a career which you will find rewarding.

INFPs generally have the following traits:

Strong value systems
Warmly interested in people
Service-oriented, usually putting the needs of others above their own
Loyal and devoted to people and causes
Future-oriented
Growth-oriented; always want to be growing in a positive direction
Creative and inspirational
Flexible and laid-back, unless a ruling principle is violated
Sensitive and complex
Dislike dealing with details and routine work
Original and individualistic - "out of the mainstream"
Excellent written communication skills
Prefer to work alone, and may have problems working on teams
Value deep and authentic relationships
Want to be seen and appreciated for who they are

The INFP is a special, sensitive individual who needs a career which is more than a job. The INFP needs to feel that everything they do in their lives is in accordance with their strongly-felt value systems, and is moving them and/or others in a positive, growth-oriented direction. They are driven to do something meaningful and purposeful with their lives. The INFP will be happiest in careers which allow them to live their daily lives in accordance with their values, and which work towards the greater good of humanity. It's worth mentioning that nearly all of the truly great writers in the world have been INFPs.

The following list of professions is built on our impressions of careers which would be especially suitable for an INFP. It is meant to be a starting place, rather than an exhaustive list. There are no guarantees that any or all of the careers listed here would be appropriate for you, or that your best career match is among those listed.

Possible Career Paths for the INFP:

Writers
Counselors / Social Workers
Teachers / Professors
Psychologists
Psychiatrists
Musicians
Clergy / Religious Workers

2006-06-07T16:38:00.000+08:00

You've got a Fresh 'n' Funky style

What's Your Style?
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Vintage tees, old-school sneaks, thrift store treasures. Cool finds like these are part and parcel of your fun and funky wardrobe. With you, it's all about making your own statement and dressing in your own hip and unique style. You might pair an '80s rocker t-shirt with some cool jeans or a cowboy shirt with tuxedo pants. It's all about how you feel that day.You've got a mind of your own, and you certainly don't need a style advisor to tell you what to wear. And you have great fun on spontaneous and unique purchases — you just aren't going to get a second shot at those one-of-a-kind vintage golf knickers. And that's how you keep your style fresh!

2006-06-07T16:11:00.000+08:00

You should pick your Zen Friend

The Just Between Friends Test
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Liting, you should pick your Zen Friend

You know who we're talking about — the person who always has their head on straight, who can sound reasonable even in the most unreasonable of times, and who makes you calmer just by standing in the same room as you. Whether you've known them all your life or recently met them in yoga class, there's just something about this calming companion that made you realize from the very beginning you wanted them in your life.This highly evolved, kind, caring, and soothing sidekick has a contagiously peaceful presence. Their grounding influence and nurturing heart give you a spiritual boost you don't easily find with others. The two of you share an appreciation for individual expression that makes any time a perfect time to spend together. Ommm!

2006-06-07T15:43:00.000+08:00

Omen was not so much of a horror, but the horror came from the sudden shrieks and scratches from my beloved pow :S second time watching a horror movie with her, and as usual, she's the horror of all horros. woahaha. warning to all: if u dun wanna stumble upon any red scratches on u after a horror film, do not sit next to pow! haha *winks* Oh, we got to know a new fren from chopin. Oops. Forgot his name, but he's from tchs and HC as well, yeah, big farmeely :D (mdc rocks! "I'm doing it for u!")

ohohoh, and kbox @ toa payoh was quite horrible for me. I broke a cup and overturned my plate of rice....made a mess and i really pity the next batch of pple using that room 26..hehe..=D

did u know that the arrangement of bedroom furniture is very crucial in determining how well u sleep at nite? I changed the formation not long ago, with the bed facing the window, and god, i had sleepless nites for weeks! heh, i revert the arrangement and alas, i'm sleeping better now, and yes, dark-coloured curtains are sleep-boosters as well. Been sleeping till 2 pm in the afternoon recently cos i couldnt tell the tyme of the day - dark and sleepy room :) try changing the arrangement of ur bedroom and darker-coloured curtains and say bye bye to sleepless nites!!

2006-06-06T20:36:00.001+08:00

Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. dont read the questions before you write.
1. pow
2. momopeach
3. ladybird
4. jaspar
5. choon siang
6. hooxy
7. bradder john
8. boon xin
9. alyssa
10. denise
11. dan tio
12. junhong
13. junnan
14. square
15. oliver
16. oiying
17. Wahidah
18. zehan
19. yuanyi
20. lijie

how did u meet 14? (square) rgs ncc fellow platoonmate. ah, that was 6.5 yrs ago .
wad wld u do if u nva met 1? (pow) heh, i'd have been less polluted neh
wad wld u do if 20 n 9 dated? (alyssa and lijie) impossible coz they dun even know each other. If they were ever to do that, i'd wish them all the best ...
did u ever like 19? (yuanyi) of cos, and i still do :) tho we seldom meet nowadays, she nv fails to brighten up my day with her contagious laughter.
wld 6 n 17 make a gd couple? (hooxy and wahidah) er.. nope, tho they are working in the same company (different department), wahidah is married with two kids....u get what i mean.
describe 3. (ladybird) hmm, good pal who remembers dates at the back of her head. responsible elder sis, can be a happy gal if she wants to :)
do u tink 8 is attractive? (boon xin) oh, definitely.
tell me smth abt 7. (john) gentle little boi. forever brad, confidante, and... (remember our pact? heh!!)
do u noe any of 12's family? (junhong) jaspar??
wad is 8's favourite? (boon xin) maybe cookies and freedom for now?
wad wld u do if 11 confesses tt he/she likes u? (dan tio) oh, my dear air rifle cap. maybe i'd hone my shooting using him as my target, heh, he's blissfully attached now la..
wad language does 15 speak? (oliver) eh, anime? in watever language, he always makes sense :D
who is 9 goin out wif? (alyssa) me!
how old is 16 now? (oiying) snr secretary of arc...she's 20 this yr ;)
when was the last time u tolked to 13? (junnan) @ my snr's wake....may 25th 2006
who's 2's favourite band/singer? (momopeach) fish leong? our all tyme fav @ kbox..!!
wld u date 4? (jaspar) of course i would =P "I'm doing IT for u"...
wld u date 7? (john) heh, no problem, had a few bradderly dates already..
is 15 single? (oliver) for now, yes, so grab him now!
wad's 10's last name? (denise) YUEN!!
wld u ever be in a serious relationship wif 11? (dan tio) heh.
wad sch does 3 go to? (ladybird) anderson, hc, nus....
where does 6 live? (hooxy) bukit batok!
wad's ur favourite thing abt 5? (choonsiang) handwriting...hehehe..like ants crawling..hehehe

2006-01-29T17:01:00.000+08:00

I heard about it. it was quite painful.. i cried. perhaps it reminded me of my own experience, perhaps, i just fully understand the agony you are going through. Other than cursing and tearing, i know of no other way that i can help, or at least do something for you. you are much stronger, i really wish you'll recover fast and manage fine. i know it's painful not so much of that person, but of the promises that we once held so dearly to. And what it takes to disillusion is just a mere few words. Falling in and out of love hurt. why can't women just procreate by binary fission? -__-

2005-11-25T09:16:00.000+08:00

你們說我長大了，應該學會獨立，沒有人有時間陪我。你們都不知道，有一個空鋁罐天天陪著我上學，放學。它聽過我唱歌，知道我無聊，還看過我和人打架，委屈地掉淚。我對它訴說的秘密，你們永奩也不會知道。車燈照過來，影子被拉得好長，它鏗鏘鏗鏘的笑了。
yawns

2005-11-25T08:55:00.000+08:00

小鴨、小船、小渡輪，拜拜，我不再想你們，不再愛你們了。昨天爸爸媽媽大吵了一架，夜裡我們抱在一起哭了好久，現在你們還感到害怕嗎？以後再也聽不到爭吵的聲音了，這一切都是為了你們好，再見了！不要為我擔心。
yawns

2005-09-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

went to klunch with aly this afternoon and sang our hearts out! it's fun to relax after a long period of mugging.. well well.. but must start the mode soon.. the last paper was a few days ago.. and since that day, i simply can't stand being @ my study table. haha..

attended the west zone schools sports council colours award ceremony yesterday. horrible time wearing that pair of court shoes. blisters sia! but it was truly a proud moment for all present hwachongians, cos our achievements were the most. our achievements took two plus minutes to be announced, and we made up most of the awardees... hehehhee...... ;)

yawns

2005-09-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

alrites. prelims are over. finally. feeling quite hollow tho. perhaps cos of him again?
been feeding my rodents (jimmy and annie as named by my father) with pomelo, and they simply love it. i like the way they hold the pulp and feverishly trying out the pomelo. so cute.

life can be so extreme. one moment u are into something, the next u find urself totally disgusted by it and want to be out. eeew.

been binging on food, loads of food-- pomelo, congee, mummy monster, milo, kinder bueno, hersheys, fish, eggs, bread, ham, 100 plus........... simply eating without control. growth spurt i suppose. hahaha.

2005-08-29T12:52:00.000+08:00

officially introducing the two new members of my family. yes. two rodents from mongolia. mongolia gerbils. hehehe.

description:

male and female. often impossible to tell the diff. big eyes that resemble water melon seeds (fertilised ones...) two muscular hind legs and the other two limbs smaller than hind. sharp nails and fidulous whiskers. lean and active. and see that black lumps in the pic? yeah. excreted material. body length about 5cm. oh well. they just look like cartoon characters. =)

lovely creatures arent they?

2005-07-30T13:57:00.000+08:00

突然间觉得很害怕）：

2005-07-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

we havent been in contact for 2 months plus.. i heard that ur gf got 3rd for jumps. congrats. and to u for getting into semi? haha. if cutting off contact is the best way out for both, i guess i would keep it this way. i have no wish to disrupt ur life and my life.

if u happen to read this, just know that i'm doing great. yup. take care.

2005-07-23T23:17:00.000+08:00

oooh
racial harmony was fun! wearing ethnic costumes of other races was interesting..hehhe..very paiseh on my way to school, i purposely avoided the uaual timing in case i meet someone of the same bus... haha...

oh well, prelims for ge yao was held today. was an enriching experience :) all the songs were nice, i like haha.. but the judges think some were too mature.. haha.. what's wrong with being mature ne? aye. why liddat one ne? huh huh huh? hehehe.. oh and i think nf and jk make a perfect pair.. heheheh

yawns. went to mug with aly and her sis @ woodlands library today. hehehe.. ping leong was there too, with his frens haha.. din manage to have dinner together tho.. hehehe.. and the fire alarm was sounded twice today... false alarm..

ahha... waiting for ge yao finals. anticipating... ... hehhee... jia you everyone.

2005-07-19T17:04:00.000+08:00

here it is! shooting team 2005. we won quite abit..haha.. indiv first for both rifle A boy and gal, team first for both A boy and gal teams, A gals pistol indiv second and team third, and i think high school side performed outstandingly too. and we got interviewed by the press(lianhezaobao??) haha we had so many ngs when taking pictures. haha.. quite a fun and memorable xperience though.. (:

it's quite a mixed feeling when we were packing. happy cos we are retiring and no need to go for training anymore :) a bit sad cos it would be the last occasion for us to touch our guns. oh well, it would also imply intense mugging period would commence..

he's my coach, coach li. so cute iseneh! haha, i think he's the nicest coach who doesnt show favouritism.. haha.. and he was very happy to receive the thank you card from us ..(:

this is fan jiao lian and our pistol boy and gal teams (: a happy bunch of pple. they worked really hard during june hols.. unfortunately there were some last minute hiccups. nevertheless, they r still the best in my eyes..... so..

SMILE!!

well, everything has finally concluded a few hours ago. we have come a long way indeed, and it wasnt easy. i feel honoured to have been part of this memory. and really, to those out there, never give up before even trying. when u look back in the years to come, you'll definitely feel blissful to have grabbed hold of the opportunity.

strive on.
hehehe.

and i'm looking forward to jts =)

2005-07-10T12:48:00.000+08:00

phew. weeks whizzed pass by in the twinkling of an eye. so much has happened, but i believe the most significant part would be ar comp. first time receiving trophies. but that's not the end. the major challenge has yet to come. busy preparing for it. hope my hardwork would payoff. all i ask for is a decent score. and it's fun balancing work and training. trodding from school to safra and back home again.

indeed, my life seems so condensed now. so packed and absolutely no time to waste. i have learnt to enjoy my work better now. although i still doze off during lectures and tutorials, i cant help but assure myself that it's a healthy way of learning. maybe it's becos we only have a few more weeks to proper lessons? perhaps.

woodlands library is still so packed with pple, even after block test. it's a good environment for mugging, seriously speaking, but too crowded. some gathered there not for studying, but maybe for some get-togethers with frens and stuff? end up pple have to use the sofas as tables. haha, the security gurads had to chase us away ( i mean those using sofas as table..) well, according to alyz, it's becos some foreigners enquired why singaporeans like to use chairs as tables.. haha... i think it's a no brainer.. duh! not enough tables la den!! haha...

ps i havent approached tiger ong for lep paper. sheesh

2005-07-03T16:44:00.000+08:00

Just came back from training. it's the most horrible, terrible, irritating, shitish training i ever had. the first part of the training was fabulous, as it went smoothly with coach li's most valuable guidance. i hit my personal best of 377.

just when i tot my day would end well, she came and bossed me around, asking me to try on more polished suit and gloves. i thought that was all, but god knows she actually wanted me to draw out my gun from the armoury, put on the shooting boots, and wear a tight-fitting shirt and try shooting again. it was like, hello, everyone was waiting for me, and we were all ready to go. den i lied to her that i had a family lunch, and had to go, that was to spare the others from waiting too. but she insisted that i try, and threatened that if i dun try, if i pull the team down on wed, it would be my own problem. WHAT THE. since she put it that way, what else could i have done? she's forcing me to feel bad la, and i couldnt stand it. tear was already swelling in my eyes.. but i know i cannot breakdown in front of her. some noticed the tears in my eyes and they looked lost too.

after all the dressing up, i was asked to go shoot a few times. i din shoot well. and it felt horrible. damn horrible. horrible like shit. sheesh. when i almost gave up, they cheered me on, and i thought the least i could do in order not to let them down was to persevere on. i did better this time, and i was given the permission to 'go for my family lunch'.

haha. so the bunch of us went to eat laksa and dessert near the interchange. so my frens are my bogus 'family' eh. i felt much better after the, i must say they r a wonderful bunch of people. they were so supportive of me when she was nasty with me. yes, i felt fortunate. :)

and to you, i do not have much respect left. you may be great in ur own way, but i'm sorry i have to remind u that u're not in the position to scold me. so what if u r the top notch trainer? u din bother to come down to school to train us much, and everytime u do come, you din even bother to stay longer. and everytime u repeat the same stuff. i know we r not worth ur time perhaps, but the least u could have done is to give us affirmation when we r good. please stop insisting that ur decision is definitely not wrong. u are a human too right?

and ur favouritism totally disgust me. she had ur guidance all along, and now that she's doing well, i do feel happy for her, but please do not write the rest off. we deserve the chance to take part in the com too, simply becos we trained hard too. it's just that you did not make the effort to watch us train. and thanks mr chai for standing up for me, altough u werent around. haha, ur spiritual support is definitely very much appreciated.

i definitely hope i would not let insignifiant individuals in my life affect my performance.
and i definitely pray hard that ur threat would not come true.

amen.

2005-06-28T18:09:00.000+08:00

hmm. took first paper today. GP was okay la. din feel much abt it. brain quite dead le. tmr sitting for bio paper. but luckily it's in the afternoon (= and it's finally concluded that i'll be exempted from LEP paper two. haha. so i'll be officially free from friday onwards. not quite. will be busy with other stuff. BLEAH.

oh wellz, i'm waiting for time to pass although i should be mugging for bio now. my head is ballooning.. haha.. looks like the only highlights in my monotonous day would be catching tong xin yuan and jiu wu zhi zun.

friends can be disappointing at times.
but u nv know when u have disappointed them too.
what's the diff between classmates and frens? hahaha.

when u tot u would be with a person for long, be it frens or more than that, u r blinded by present to become oblivious to future. so that when u finally reach the future, everything seems lost. and so r u.

snap out of it woman. u onli have urself to pity.

2005-06-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

Yay! I finally broke the 360 mark and hit the ultimate 370!! It’s quite a feat eh.. I just received news that I may be exempted from lep paper two or a postpone! But well, I do hope that it’s a postpone.. I studied studiously for the test already! And will continue mugging for it! Hmm, I seriously hope our competition would turn out superbly well.. cos we really did train hard for it. Some even decided to give up their BT to train for the competion. Hmm, esp the pistol shooters, they r forever so hardworking! Jia yOus!

Yes, stress is inevitable, esp so when we r up against so many national shooters. Aye. I’m rather stressed le, u see, my team mates would be two top notch national shooters.. they are very zai .. so they deserve the medals. But the thing is, the third shooter would either make or break the team. Imagine the tremendous stress man, no doubt I’m so shOrt! Hehe! Nonetheless, we shud take whatever that comes our way graciously. Take one step at a time eh!

I cut my hair already! But not radical one. Just looks neater and a bit diff. Aye. I don like my mum already. She threatened me to do a radical hairdo, if not she’d hOOt me when I get home. Whatever la. In the end she forgot her threat I think. Hee hee.

Oh, I went to the doc’s yesterday! Rashes from alcOhOl! Aye. No more wine and beer for me le =( the most hated thing is that the doctor actually injected into my bone in my left arm! Oh my gosh! It’s quite bad, a little blue black and a bump. I came up with two conclusions, it’s either the doc’s poking and aiming skills too lousy, or just that I’m too skinny! Weeeheheheee

ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.................

2005-06-23T13:56:00.000+08:00

here's yet another self-proclaimed break from mugging. oh wells, just feel like slacking.

suddenli realised that doing household chores is fun. at least more enjoyable than mugging. i tot i'm the onli oddball, yet to my horrible surprise, my two other buddies are picking up the same hobby too! haha! that's why i say parents shud be glad that jcs have midyrs and block tests. it would be a miracle to see their princesses ( and princes???) clean the house extraordinarily hard. Voila! sparkling houses!! it's a worthwhile diversion of attention from the monotonous preparation for bt. just like flushing two toilet bowls with a press. haha. getting cu1su2..
feeling the sudden attachment to my room. haha.. perhaps i spent too much time in it..oh wells, it's just a sudden craze to decor my little room.

i love dawns. the gradual lightening of the sky is nice. i like to open my windows and enjoy the morning breeze.. but can only see the sky, which is mostly blocked by the buildings around. that's why we shud have chosen a higher level, or the ground level. aye. =

How do I change?
If I feel depressed I will sing.
If I feel sad I will laugh.
If I feel ill I will double my labour.
If I feel fear I will plunge ahead.
If I feel inferior I will wear new garments.
If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice.
If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come.
If I feel incompetent I will think of past success.
If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals.
Today I will be the master of my emotions.
-Og Mandino

If I feel slack I will try to define hardworking
-pOrk

hardworking is doing more than what is required in hope to attain more than ordinary so that life is more strenuous than others'.

ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2005-06-22T00:15:00.000+08:00

family bbq @ 3rd aunt's apartment was quite relaxing. i know most of the people. those whom i havent met for ages. all my aunts and uncles r old. have grown old. me too. i wonder what the gathering was for, well, apparently it was a pure get-together. i guess when pple get old, we tend to miss the good old times and would want to live thru them again.

haha.. the bbqed lamb tasted horrible, and the food reminded me of the buffet we had every morning back in china... not tasty but filling. yup. serves the purpose. den we had red wine. horrible me. i'm a bit allergic to wine/alcohol. i became a lobster after a few sips.. and it itched a bit. =P and everyone laughed at me!!!

kids r a horrible bunch. always seeing them hopping, crawling, jumping around. they get too hyper when they play,but they sleep like dead logs when thir energy is exhausted. so xtreme eh. i'm jealous of them, rather. their brain is not so developed, so no need to think so much.. haha... there.. i'm thinking too much.. haha.. guess a bit drunk now...

and there's training tmr..
with a hangover.. haha.. fabulous!

ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............

2005-06-14T16:27:00.001+08:00

k box outing: the room was freezing cold, and the waiter was ultra comical..

yawns

2005-06-14T16:27:00.000+08:00

(pOrk, yunli, ladybird) birds and lotsa yellow birds!!
yawns

2005-06-14T16:20:00.000+08:00

another failed attempt of ours to mug together hehehe.. so we started snapping away (yunli, ladybird, pOrk)

2005-06-14T15:23:00.000+08:00

14 June 2005

i guess everyone's getting frenzy esp as we march into the third week of june hols.. after two weeks of lax mugging, now shud be into intense one.. hee..

-getting ample rest is super duper important, but well, i'm not against staying up with the owls
too! perhaps a cup of cappuccino or mocha would help!

-topping up ur stationery does help to spur u on at times. if it gives u the excitement to want to
mug, spending a few bucks may be a worthwhile investment :)

-mugging at alternate places may give stimulations to the brain. If u cannot stand mugging at
the table, try sitting on the toilet bowl ;)

-imagine. imagine urself studiously mugging away..... and VOILA! the motivation to push urself
on may just struck on u like a bolt of lightning! ( hehehe.. abit exaggerated..)

-try not to do the same subject on the same one day. switch ur brain into different mode to
make sure it's still living.. haha

-watch SUPERSTAR to get a hearty laugh before mugging!

-Stare at urself in the mirror to bore urself to tears. The worksheets and notes may become
more interesting and exciting after that.

ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........................................................

2005-05-30T17:07:00.000+08:00

): i feel horrible. first day of holiday and i'm down with flu, cough and fever. i want to sleep, but it's aching all over. tried many sleeping positions, but none would alleviate the pain.. and i can feel my head swelling. too heavy for my neck. sitting up is a horrible position too....... i just hope the aches would signal to me that i'm actually growing. den at least i would feel better.

2005-05-29T12:55:00.000+08:00

jUst read a sunday times article ( 'LIFE HAPPENS,OUT OF THE BLUE' by ms Cheong Suk-wai) which ms cheong urges people to take note of words that come from people who care about us. i jotted down a few quotes from that article which i found rather meaningful... ...

1) "don't think of the thousands above u; think of the billions below you who will never have the chances you've had."

this is esp encouraging to lost souls who are at the cross junctions of life, and have no idea which direction to move on. well, this quote speaks all: grab hold of opportunities and make the best out of them, afterall, not everyone is blessed with such opportunities (:

2) "When u are guiding someone who's blind -whether in the eyes or in his heart- please see things from where he is standing, not from wre you are standing."

this reminds me of the visually-handicapped uncle who would wait for SBS bus no. 167 every evening with me after school. he always wears a smile on his face, and his smile is definitely a dose of positive energy (at least for me)which would somewhat lighten my heart after a long, draggy school day (esp. thursdays!).

p.s hmm, anyone knows the purpose of those circles shaded with different colours at the bottom of every page of Straits Times??

2005-05-21T15:37:00.000+08:00

Your #1 Match: INFJ

The Protector

You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.

You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Your #2 Match: INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

What's Your Personality Type?

2005-05-20T20:31:00.000+08:00

had a great tyme sweating out during pe today! well, we went back on our words, abandoned dance and headed for badminton. i guess that teacher in charge would have informed miss chien of our disloyalty. haha.. but i guess i did not regret my choice. we had fun! and, we din do much harm to the other players, xcept that i made a lot of noise =P all thanks to that piece of cloud who loved to challenge against the net, or the other player next to me from the other class instead of me, who was her official opponent.. perhaps she didnt wanna play with me? or i'm not attractive enuf? beats me. and that hooxy. she loved giving me short shots. u know those kind can hit my shoulder or waist, got me entangled with myself ..haha.. but i returned her an "armpit rocket" @ the end of the day! alas! revenge taken ;)

oh wellz, enuf about flying feathers.

arc exco election was quite a headache. and the range itself is in a real bad condition. we just witnessed the sewage pipe giving way some weeks ago.. can u imagine the stench and awful sight we had to put up with?? the wastes from the stalls in the canteen above the range... erps X)
and the wooden planks fixed on the ceiling are drooping.. and cockroaches.. big and small ones.. ahha.. sometimes we even have to resort to shooting them when they appear in the shooting area. had a talk with the teacher in charge yesterday. well, i agree with him that it's difficult to ask for so much changes within a short period of time. and we need to show what we r capable of to convince the admin that the changes are worthwhile. compared to other schools, the facilities and guns we have are 6 on the scale from 1-10? barely passed. yup that's how bad it is..

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2005-05-19T19:08:00.000+08:00

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're very preoccupied with your fears and problems.

These bad dreams indicate that you need to spend more time on your issues during the day.

Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities.

You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

What Do Your Dreams Mean?

2005-05-19T19:06:00.000+08:00

Your Japanese Name Is...

Aneko Hosokoawa

What's your Japanese Name?

2005-05-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2005-05-01T10:12:00.000+08:00

went NTUC to shop for grocery with my father. he asked me to help him queue up to buy 4D, which i fillially did. i was reading the posters around while trying to kill time, den i saw this rules and regulations poster, which stated, "no children under 18 yrs, do not wear school uniform, ..." non of my business rite, i tot. haha! who would have guessed that auntie at the counter would ask for my IC to confirm that I'm REALLY eighteen! >_< " grr. i do look small, but i am mature! oh well, looks are deceiving.

p.s i'm really 18.

2005-04-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

another week had passed.

2005-04-22T20:43:00.000+08:00

我终于知道，心酸原来比心痛更心碎。心碎又算什么？心，早应该死了吧！既然答应了跟你断绝，我就应该坚持下去。我很伟大，因为我装作很伟大的样子，成全你和她，鼓励你朝北边飞去，而我，一直在南方等待。与其说等待，不如说，我还没忘记你。也不奢望你会回头看我一眼，即使心中有千万个盼望，但，那始终还是属于妄想。
这是一个月前的大傻瓜。
一个月后的这个夜晚，我又想起了你。这次，少了点辛酸，却多了份可笑。很好笑，真的很可笑！两年多的感情总的来说，只是一个笑话。那些能把蜜蜂甜死的甜言蜜语，那一堆一堆拿来哄小妹妹不哭的礼物，那片片两人一起编织的美梦，还有那段曾经一起手牵手走过的路，对一个月后的我而言，只不过是这场闹剧里的道具罢了。而我，是最最最最大的大傻瓜。我应该感谢你这位导演兼编剧，谢谢你浪费了两年的时间。
另一边的草原真的比较绿吗？你还没告诉我。可是，我想告诉你，要是我还会哭，不是应为还依恋着你，而是对自己的糊涂伤心，也是为自己的两年而惋惜。。。

2005-03-25T17:06:00.000+08:00

somehow i enjoy depression (not that i have one now) it's always after depression that we come to know more about ourself isn't it? it may be better to know more about the stranger u see infront of the mirror every day..and make necessary changes.. for the better.. i hope?

just like mood swing, we suffer from confidence swing too! it's the period when we are the most sensitive to every single minute detail.. unbeknowst to even urself, VOILA! u are already out of that swing and back to normal.. (and tangent..haha) .. hmm.. i think it's always better to reflect on it, and learn something from the experience. and GROW UP!! ^o^ Growing up is subjective.. i mean almost everything in this world is subjective rite.. ( so is the word 'subjective' )

haha..alrites alrites.

-snortz-

2005-03-24T21:13:00.000+08:00

alrites alrites. been a wholly wholly long time since i last place my cloven foot here! haha! oh, shall give cloudsafloat one 东坡猪脚 for being my first customer.. haha..

hmm. havent recovered from stupid throat infection. so bear with me for croaking alrites..

well, halfway through block test. i missed one paper and it's my beloved 9233.. the mc was gotten after much agony.. the doctor suaned me for mugging too hard as typical of a hwa chong student..and asked me not to study too much cos i'll nv pass in that institution -dotz-

i enjoyed today's mugging session@ woodlands library! so quiet and peaceful.. no more crowds queuing @ the entrance long before twelve. all the tables were empty.. i finally choped the booth.. and cloudsafloat and ladybird always whispering loudly... haiz.. VERY GOOD!

oh. friday. saturday. sunday. mon. tue. End of exams! wheeeeee...
den we can go haunt kbox again.. heheh..=)

2005-03-14T21:47:00.000+08:00

oh well. sincerity can be genuine and of course, fako. so it's up to the person at the receiving end to decipher the truth. i agree with my ten toes that packaged sincerity may=hypocrisy, but i believe that after so many years of making frens, we have come to understand what we really mean by sincerity. i supposed it's true that we do choose frens to be sincere to based on past experiences, that is why we have so many frens but few good or best frens.

of course, diff pple seek diff level of sincerity in frens. and the time on which we make our judgement matters. but then again, how much time we want to give is up to the individual.

well, this is afterall a very subjective issue. to each of his own, rite? :)

2005-03-07T18:42:00.000+08:00

-pink star fish-

my dad told me his colleague ran over two puppies (one-week old i think..) and the two poor little things were reduced to merely skin and drooping skull.. the mother dog den ran over and picked up her beloved by the mouth.. can imagine how much it hurts.. haiz...

2005-02-25T00:15:00.000+08:00

oh shooty. i feel so dead healthy now!

haha.
drifting around in schoool like a jellyfish lately. partial deionization due to lack of sleep and teh other half shud be due to boredom ba. arranged a movie outing with a few to catch white noise or hide and seek on fri nite (tho i know i would be scared after that.. but well.. it's thrilling u see..)after x country, but i have a feeling that it would be a null promise afterall.

felt so rotten in chem tuts.. LAS (lee ah sam? haha..)always going rather fast and once i lag behind it's pointless to continue listening.. so i'd spend the rest of the time flipping thru the notes.

i think jellyfishes are cute. =)nua nua one.. erps.. ok.. no link..

2005-02-11T17:20:00.001+08:00

yay! went kbox with a bunch of goodie frens= cs+txy+hooxy+yunli+john.. very fun and enjoyable.. we took on many diff songs by different singers.. esp tong4 kuai4 (by SHE) which was so ... yeah.. tong4 kuai4.. haha..

it totalled up to about $65++.. the lunch was not that bad but the portions were rather petite.. and the lemon tea was too sweet.. shud have ordered soda lime or something.. (the waiter blabbered out a string of diff kinds of drinks that they serve upon being asked.. which i couldnt catch at all .. xcept for the first drink.. which was lemon tea obviously..)

and the whole cine and heeren were crowded with hwachongians... bumped into some wherever we went.. but den again.. we are the lucky ones that do not need to return school on third day of new year.. haha..

took some pics as and when.. enjoy!..=)

2005-02-11T17:20:00.000+08:00

group picture @ kbox (cineleisure box no. 36) .. john looks like he's digging cs' nose.. and txy looks as tho she's snipping off yunli's ahem ahem..hehehe..;)

2005-02-11T17:18:00.001+08:00

hoo hoo and pork .. =)

2005-02-11T17:18:00.000+08:00

haha.. gurls rulez...=)

2005-02-04T20:25:00.000+08:00

whee! i feel so relieved now! one heavy week sia.. *phew* hmm.. looking forward to cny.. painted my house blue.. hee hee hee.. under the sea iseneh..;) oh yes.. and k box.. so xciting!

actually nothing much's change about school, xcept for teh new formation of the class. eh, people shuffling around and opening yet another new circle of frens.. but most importantly is not to forget about the old ones..but those who are not worth it.. just forget it lo..

seen many sides of many people whom i wasnt close to last year. everyone is so different, and it goes that the way i handle them shud be diff too. frens (class or cca.. ) are built on fiduciary relationship, if it's just for short term lose and gain kind of theory, why bother wasting ur time? and cliques are necessary. we cant possibly do everything as a whole class everytime. i'd rather haf a few good frens ,whom i can find solace in when feeling down, rather than a whole bunch of 'diluted' frens. @ the beginning of the year, i heard people complaining about cliques in the class and their so called great aspiration to make the class cohesive. looks like it's to no avail .. because the culprits are they themselves.. how ironically sarcastic. hehehe.

2005-01-22T14:27:00.000+08:00

class outing was rather stale. best part was sun tanning and cycling. haha.. and the guys played 一条龙 in the water.. hehe.. what's 一切随缘 by the way? ;)

been wondering about ur words: what if i have a girl fren? how will u react? when i finally found the ans yesterday, u told me u were about to go stead. well, i guess u dun need any ans from me. time to back off. i deleted ur no. from my contact list. swollen eyes again.

haiz. just leave me alone.

2005-01-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

feeling lousy. havent been as confident as before. or was it just a fascade? comparisons here and there. i have qualms about finding assurance. i have qualms about myself. i dun like myself. ah. shit.

2005-01-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

如果那两个字没有颤抖　
我不会发现　我难受怎么说出口　
也不过是分手如果对于明天没有要求　
牵牵手就像旅游　成千上万个门口　
总有一个人要先走

＊怀抱既然不能逗留　
何不在离开的时候　
一边享受　一边泪流
十年之前　我不认识你　你不属于我　
我们还是一样陪在一个陌生人左右　
走过渐渐熟悉的街头
十年之后　我们是朋友　还可以问候　
只是那种温柔再也找不到拥抱的理由　
情人最后难免沦为朋友

＊直到和你做了多年朋友　
才明白我的眼泪　
不是为你而流　
也为別人而流

2005-01-03T17:32:00.000+08:00

hmm. back to SCHOOL at last! been cooping up @ home for dunnoe how mani days. the feeling to be back together with frens again is just so comfortable.. well.. maybe abit dampen by teh maths and bio test coming up these days. BUt, shall not let it affect my mood. trying to enjoy life as it is.. =)

chill!

2005-01-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

aye. feeling so lost now. yet again. haiz. school's starting tmr again. and there's maths test on tues, bio test on wed. i pray that they'll postpone it til later. so soon. very suicidal iseneh. haiz. well, but whatever it is, it means --- TIME TO MUG AGAIN!

2005-01-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

looking back @ this year that has passed, i cant help but feel rather empty. well, school was definitely rich and vibrant, with all the activities and happenings, making new frens as the time passed.. it's a good experience. yep, there were multiple ups and downs, happy and sad, sour and sweet..

the not-say-very-nice-but-once-is-alrite-and-enuf-and-yet-binds-pple-together-PW
the very-hard-to-enjoy-and-yet-cannot-yawn-even-if-u-r-working-anaerobically-bio-lectures..
the-long-awaited-and-yet-most-dreaded-mass dances..
the many many CIPs which brought us joy and laughter at the same time
the STJs and JTSs
beng-beng-ism..
the grand finale of the year..X'mas party! (rox man!)

blah blah blah..all so sweet. and my class has definitely been the most wonderful part of JC life (i think..even tho there were unhappy times.. but what are those compared to the happy ones..) but time is passing real fast, i can hardly hold on to these memories and savour them bit by bit. yet, i must open my arms to welcome more to come in the coming year.

this is a real confusing age. 17-18. i think what makes things more confusing is that i'm not sure of what i want in my life. hmm.. haiz.. the need to know my goals in life grows stronger and stronger each day. i know there are many out there feeling the same loss as I.. well, let's hope to find our directions soon.. but first i must tell myself to be patient. PATIENCE!

people come and go, and i'm happy that they are there to piece up the puzzles of my teenage years. on the other hand ( i haf 5 fingers.. ahha..), i really feel blessed to have been part of ur lives too..=) .. i know i must haf been toking about hatred and disappointment too often in front of some (so much so that they feel that i need SOS..).. and it ain't doing me or frens good. so, i've decided. Forgive but dun forget, yet learn to let go is what i want for next year. many things are fated in life, if i cant own it, why not let it seek its own happiness.. haha..

frens. rekindled some extinguished flames. haah.. the lost and found frens. well, ALYSSA! thanks for the wonderful company u generously gave me thru out the year ( and many more to come rite..haha).. swimming, tanning, gymming, slacking, mugging... i must say that u gave me a great deal of hope and urge to carry on with life.. hehe.. so rock on girl! ;)

yes.. many people to thank for the wonderful memories. everyone. yeah, everyone. so keep smiling. and i wanna meet lotsa new frens!

cheers.

2005-01-01T22:18:00.000+08:00

tot sch's reopening on tues.. chey..

well, puked again. dun wanna go school.

=(

2004-12-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

　勇敢不是什么都不怕，而是怕也要去面对。

2004-12-28T19:00:00.000+08:00

有人说：“每个女孩曾都是无泪的天使，当她遇到心爱的男孩，她学会哭了，结果落入凡间。所以啊，男人都不该再让女人流泪伤心，因为她为了你放弃了曾经拥有的天堂。”

x'mas party!

2004-12-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

had the end of yr x'mas class party last nite. haha. quite fun la. with all the horny forfeits and stuff. oh well, i like the presents exchange part best. the ambience was nice and cosy;) and it's sweet. i got a pink wallet from CJ (thankew..) and i think everyone else was happy. oh and i drank..erm.. alcohol (dunnoe what's that.. wine or juice or champagne..). den had wobbly legs, red face and hot ears. heh.. den on the way home i kept smiling to myself... ( a bit.. drunk??) heh.... lost my ez link, but found i again after tracking abck to fy's house... hehe..

hehe.thank you peeps for the wonderful nite.....=)

2004-12-23T23:04:00.000+08:00

i hate it when u game, esp when it's CM.
i hate it when u walk her from bedok to simei and back to paya leba,
i hate it the way she calls u bestfren.
i hate it how readily u say yes to go out with her,
i hate it the way u say "huh..see first..not sure.." when it comes to me.
i hate it when u dun reply my message,
i hate it that u know that i hate u when u dun reply my message.
i hate it when u read her blog everyday,
i hate it more that u cannot remember the url of my blog.
i hate it when u dun call me, yet
i hate it more when u do.

2004-12-23T22:43:00.000+08:00

christmas resolution. yep. nearing my ~~goal~~.

"Mams want Liting to be CSM and Liting wants to be CSM. Our opinions are not considered. If she becomes CSM we will die! She has so much anger and dissatisfaction in her. what will she do to rgsncc next year?"

it hurts more now den ever esp when i look back at all the sour, sweet, spicy, salty memories. yep yep. i sound like a monster alrite. a very red one at that.

"oh u shudnt dwell on the past anymore.."
"let bygones be bygones..."
"look! u haf a bright future ahead.."
"u shudnt regret ur choice..u chose him stubbornly.."

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2004-12-21T22:23:00.000+08:00

Last Christmas

by Unknown
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone
I'll give it to someone
special

oh oh oh.....

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby do you recognize me?
Well it's been a year it doesn't surprise me

Happy Christmas
I wrapped it up and sent it with a letter
Saying I love you I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away - you gave it away
This yeart to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special - special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special - special

Oooh

A crowded room friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My god I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore me apart
Oooh
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away - you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special - special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone
I'll give it to someone
special

ncc gathering

2004-12-20T13:28:00.000+08:00

ncc gathering
Posted by: yawningpokadot.

had our annual ncc gathering @ ms dee's house today. was fun and the cookies we made were nice =) me people whom i havent seen for quite some time. well, onli seven of u tho: dee, syah, yin, joyce, zahrad, aini, linglee...

2004-12-19T17:19:00.000+08:00

2004-12-19T01:25:00.000+08:00

终身美丽 歌手:郑秀文

塔尖仍旧记得

这拥抱极美好

爱有千斤重

重过无涯的铁路

你那手指再笨拙再粗

剪也被你修补

从前那一位永未能做到

是你去唤醒我

努力才能被爱慕

但回头目睹你

为我好自己不好

我这幸运儿合着眼睛

只得你沉重的身影

如果这记忆非爱情

连天都不会太高兴

莫非可终身美丽

才值得勾勾手指发誓

对你不止感激敬礼

当你知己才是虚伪

莫非多一分秀丽

才值得分享我的一切

给我自信给我地位

这叫幸福不怕流逝

任他们多漂亮

未及你矜贵

记忆无论再轻

轻不过脉搏声

靠你的手臂

抱我人潮中畅泳

我这幸运儿幸运到一转身找到你

为我打气

如果可抱起这爱情

连天都会替我高兴

因有自信

所以美丽

使我自卑都放低

在半空之中亲你

不管身世

the end

2004-12-16T16:02:00.000+08:00

okay. i did it. told him the truth. but i think he thinks i'm very drag the mud bring the water. well, very hard to say it out okay. but the outcome was xpected =) at least it shows we are thinking along the same line iseneh. hmm.

p.s.1: get well soon k
p.s.2: and dun forget my present =D

2004-12-15T20:47:00.001+08:00

lingered around wisma & taka the whole of the afternoon. firstly for air rifle meeting which went very smoothly =) i hope that teh xmas party @ care centre would be fun! yay! after that headed for library@orchard. oh and i realised that i owe library 6.50 bucks! oh my goodness. i've decided not to use that card anymore. shall resort to using other people's card.. hehe...

*shoot me*

and i can't stand that bro of mine. keeps throwing his disgusting temper around. u know, i can be a better sister if my bro isn't him or i were the elder sister. who cares about you man. if u are unwilling to do anything for me than forget it. how i wish i had a sis. den i can wear dresses @ home without having to care a hoot. ****.

hehe. i had DAIMs to brigten up my boring and stale day. oh and that walk with alyssa and the cappuccino icecream (quite nice... onli 50 cents! must try!) was peaceful. haha.. bot a dress for twenty bucks but she said it's worth it! hehe... so i trust her taste eh??

2004-12-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

2004-12-15T01:35:00.000+08:00

okay. been slacking whole day. just settled down emotionally. i tot i spoilt my mum's sewing machines yet again! haha.. but after numerous testing, it appeared ok. heh. i tell u. i'm a genius ok! (天才儿童 as branded by my family) watever i touch has a high possibility of being destoyed. i spoilt an iron, a rice cooker, a wok, an electric fan, tv, radio....

i believe the most remembered is the wok. that happened two yrs ago. i was steaming some sausages, and i cleverly went to catch a nap! oh, and when i heard my brother shrieked, i thought i was dreaming. the house was in total smoke! ( or steam!) i gropped my way to the kitchen and found my poor sausages so out of shape. hia. my ears were not spared of course. but i'm still very sorry that i victimised the innocent sausages.....

and the electric fan incident. i must praise myselffor being able to tahan the heat after it exploded. well, the last time i saw it breathed was the massive explosion. it went " bom" and i saw it sparked. haha! and guess what happened after that？ i went back to sleep, only to prepare his funeral the next morning. hehe.

lessons learnt:
1) never steam ur sausages! MAYBE OVEN WOULD BE BETTER..
2) when ur fan throw sparks at u, accept it gracefully! if not u haf to spend a sum on it's funeral..

2004-12-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

it's 2306hrs and they (those @ the void deck) are still doing their ritual and chantings. not a good time to sleep eh. well, not blaming them tho. it's a natural and neccesary thing. i believe everyone has the experience too. eh, actually i dun know who's lying down there. (nv kaypo over such stuff..=S).. oh yes.. pple playing mahjong. wonder why mahjong is a neccessity @ wakes. does it serve any purpose? to create a lively ambience to keep the spirit company? or just purely to kill time?? hmm... is it a tradition?? ( must be a gambler who started it..hehe)

2004-12-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

"Life is unpredictable.

Super.

So please treasure it as it goes. & yes, to the people I know, those that are very dear to me, please take care of yourselves.Treasure & seek every opportunity you could ever have. Do what you want in your course of life, whatever you want, just do it. Cause you only have this one life & this one chance to do it, cause no one knows what is going happen the very next day , or the very next hour, or the very next minute or second. Do what you really want to do, & when you do believe in something, fight for it all you want. When you love someone, love the person to the very fullest, let the person know how much you love her/ him. Dont ever hold back & wait till another day, what if that day/ time never comes? No one knows. Live the essence of life to the very much you can, cause it is certainly unpredictable."-- ALYSSA

" when u love someone, love the person to the very fullest, let the person know how much you love him/her. Don't ever hold back and wait till another day, what if that day/time never comes?"

i have the sudden urge to come off clean with him, but something's holding me back. i know that shud i let the opportunity slip thru my fingers, i'll certainly regret it for the rest of my life. i've decided to let xmas be the day.......and whatever happens after that, we'll see.......................

2004-12-12T20:30:00.000+08:00

another shopping day. heh. bot lots of sweet stuff..*smiles* hmm.. i love nice notebooks pads etc.. and cute slippers.. =)

there was this malay woman waiting outside my neighbour's house yesterday afternoon. she picked up my neighbour's wallet @ sun plaza and came specially to return to her. hmm. well, i promise not to be a racist from now on.. ( till .. o be confirm later hehehe..)

2004-12-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

yay! went gym with alyssa today! and i shedded around 480 calories... wow... but i ate alot for dinner tonite.. so hey calories! we are quits! ahha...(i need wheelchair!!) hmm.. another new recreation for me.. other than swimming.. smiles!

well, when i told u it's over i meant it.

2004-12-10T20:32:00.000+08:00

feeling nostalgic after reading aisyah's blog. hmm. well, i miss you guys alot too. and even tho i din post much on livejournal, i do check the lj frequently just to update myself on ur happenings. i do care k! one year's passed. so fast.

know what? havent been exactly happy. i knew it was not rite, yet i made the mistake all the same. it's retribution i think. doesn't matter. bear the consequences, what else can i do? it was this mistake that forced me to relook at this world of mine. and hey! i realised all the true happiness i had was robbed away. sob and lament? yeah, i did. but what's the use? hatred and anger, disappointment and pain, yes i had them all, did me no good. i'm so so wrinkled inside. and who were there to iron the wrinkles? i have to admit, it's not u, could not be u, only frens..

2004-12-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

hey! i miss u! how are u? been busy rite! well, i'm looking forward to x'mas!

2004-12-07T17:13:00.000+08:00

been back for a few days le. still in the holiday mood. well, beijing and shanghai were fun. and the weather was superb. life there was kinda routiney, but well, simple life is definitely worth living.

made lots of frens... new frens.. and i'm happy about it. it's a pleasant change of taste =)
i stood at the window in the hotel room on the last nite @ shanghai, and marvelled at the world that was presented infront of me. wow. the buses on the roads seemed so small.. what about me? hmm.. i'm so insignificant compared to so much of this world. it dawned on me that i shud really really wake up, treasure life as it is.

2004-12-05T14:08:00.000+08:00

the huge vats.. reminds me of sima guang who broke the vat to save his fren.. hehe...

2004-12-05T14:07:00.000+08:00

oh! the tree is falling on me..SOS..... erps..haha.. smiles! :)

2004-12-05T14:06:00.000+08:00

qi nian dian @ tian tan.. well.. had to take lots of pics of this particular place cos i had to do a report on this place...

2004-12-05T14:05:00.000+08:00

river @ peking university. the bottom of the trees are painted white to warn people of the trees esp at nite.. well.. very smart iseneh..

2004-12-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

we suddenli realised that that was the 10th day of the trip.. and we took out all our cameras unanimously........ so sweet.....

2004-12-05T14:02:00.000+08:00

my beijing buddy and his gf.. hehehe..some peepssay he looks like yu wen le..oh well.. he can sing eng songs very well... and his gf can sing SHE's songs wonderfulli too..........hahha

2004-12-05T14:00:00.000+08:00

oh WELL

2004-12-05T13:59:00.001+08:00

DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-12-05T13:59:00.000+08:00

finally! i found someone who's punier than me! i found him in the shanghai museum..;)

2004-12-05T13:58:00.000+08:00

river @ zhou zhuang..

2004-12-05T13:56:00.000+08:00

my pretty shanghai buddy & I @ fu dan er fu zhong

2004-11-18T22:03:00.000+08:00

yay! x'mas is coming! whee! time to love and be loved! heheh.. and of course the most practical thing to do is to pamper ur loved frens withPRESENTS! whee! haha! thinking of getting something for me?? fret not!here's my wishlist:

1) necklace ( can be choker,or silver kind, pendants..no need ex one..)
2) earrings ( silver or plastic also can,preferrably dangling ones!the cheaper the merrier cos it
means u can buy more earrings iseneh ;) hahah)
3) slippers ( those can go shopping kind,no heels, comfortable, soft, can be any colour..black with
beads, pink or yellow...)
4) friendship bands ( anklets!)
5) shoes laces ( baby pink anybody? i can't find... =S)
6) bag ( those carry by the side kind.. yellow or pink!)
7) wallet ( ooh. i want any kind which has both white and pink )
8) or simply any hand-made goodies =) i really appreciate great effort!

2004-11-16T13:01:00.000+08:00

有人说，应趁假期，把储藏室的旧东西清理掉。那些已穿不下的衣服，那些已不能发光的灯，通通都丢了。同时也把心里头的储藏室清理，腾出空位，好让新的事物容纳进去。那些不该存在在你心里的人，就该痛定思痛，将他忘怀。但这样的一个人，真的能说忘就忘吗？有时努力了，累了，又努力，又再累了，那疲惫的眉头，又要如何敞开呢？

2004-11-16T11:25:00.000+08:00

this is my class tee! yay! so nice ISENEH! ooh. special thanks to hoo hoo! yay!! smilez!

2004-11-16T11:18:00.000+08:00

he's flying in the air now i suppose. he called to bid goodbye before boarding. so i hope it's a more relaxed departure than previous experiences. at least i did not pester him. well, i think it's a rite choice to send him off @ the air port. :)

it'll be my turn this sat. heheh. yep yep. looking forward to it.. tho i have a feeling my life over there would be zombie-ish. hehe. i'm so so tired now. haiz. i slept like a pig on the way home just now. haha. havent seen quite alot of people for quite sometime. hope everything's fine..:)

SMILEZ!

2004-11-14T20:20:00.000+08:00

tee from care and share. quite nice actually =)

2004-11-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

here it is! we ended the day with a snapshot of six of us @ our stall! hehee. oh well, distributing envelopes with the words ' community chest' on them was definitely not an easy job. and we had to literally beg them to take the envelope. ahha. we even resorted to having board signs which read "free x'mas pins" with an * stuck somewhere denoting that "terms and conditions apply". (of course with any amt of donation that is..) oh, and this old uncle came by and chided us, saying that we shudnt emphasize on the word 'free' when it's not true. well, din our parents teach us that there is no free lunch on this earth?? hehe. moreover, this is called gimmick iseneh. why else would singaporeans donate then?

and it's really irritating to hear of teens refusing to donate even though we persuaded and assured them that,"oh any amount will do, even one dollar or ten cents.." well, it's already a loss on the part of teh organization that we give u the collar pins for mere ten cents.....and so many bangladeshes. (or however u spell la..) .. walk infront of us a few times, staring at our pins and stuff. haha. we could not possibly stare @ them and ask them to get lost right. they were our potential customers afterall. (and obviously i was wrong...) haha..

2004-11-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

going to school tmr for a pre-china trip meeting. yeah. we r playing host tmr. hmm. they went pulau ubin today. i wonder how was it. but i guess it's fun... =)

oh and my brother spent $325 bucks on x-box. sigh. i find him very disgusting today. bleah. guys at his age shud just get a girlfren man. dun butterfly around me.

oh. i bet evryone remembers this machine thingy whereby u slot in a $1 coin and you turn turn turn the knob den a silly ball would roll out. haha i had this dream yesterday: i'm at this market looking at one such machine. and guess what's inside the machine??!!

1. it's brown.
2. it's round.
3. it's starchy.
4. it's holey!

YES! POTATOES!!

2004-11-09T16:05:00.000+08:00

saw a young couple of my age kissing and hugging each other in the swimming pool this morning. well, i guess all others noticed what they were doing too, and we, as the kind on-lookers, left a radius of about 6 metres around the centre of radioactivity. hehe. and i jokingly said to alsa," do not swim near them, or else u might get pregnant without knowing why..!" hahha.. (quoting eleven. oh he said this @ east coast park during class picnic... again, we witnessed another couple doing that in the sea..)

p.s. haven't been able to sleep soundly these few nights. *yawns*

2004-11-08T15:53:00.000+08:00

researching for china trip is definitely not the thing to do during hols. i feel that the first part of the hols is totally goner liao. waste time researching. why can't we just go there look look see see? haiz. sianz. just hope the trip itself can make up for it..

went down a moment ago to retrieve my dad's keys, which he absent-mindedly left it hangin on the letter box key hole..hahaha.. senile senile senile..what else can i say more?

i noticed there's a guy from the opposite block, twelve storey, who kept waving in my direction. and i think he was waving this white piece of paper @ me. is he shouting for help? oh no, is he being locked up there? kidnapped???? haiz. dear imagination, please do not run wild.

2004-11-05T13:34:00.000+08:00

fangi, yiwen, jaiwai, powrabbit, ereneh, pork, hooxy
low low, container, xavier, ming zhen, soon soon, MP Ho, eleven, chengjie
evokes sweet and fond memories of class chalet. i truly enjoyed myself with all the clappings, laffing, heart-attacking... haha.. chill people! love ya lots!

2004-11-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

jump...wheee....!

2004-11-04T22:18:00.000+08:00

to anyone who needs a little hug andencouragement...smiles!

2004-11-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

there goes my dream of becoming an air stewardess. well, i cannot make it. too short. hmm. why must air stewardess be so tall? other than helping people put their stuff at the top bunk, what else? hmm.. i seriously think they shud reconsider this criterion, or maybe lower their lower limit. bleah. i'm disappointed, very.

and i suppose going down to little india shud be a more economical place to get the essence? tho i seriously do not want to be scented with jasmine fragrance..hee..evil..